Again

~ Today ~

my soul is wasn't with me....
where u run away ah?
yr master is here...
come back come back...

i have done so many wrong things today...
talk the wrong things
call the wrong person
do the wrong part in asgmt
take the wrong things
google the wrong things

crazy? i had crazy feeling now

trying to let myself calm down....
deep breath deep breath

i will be fine

i dun care i m lying myself or pretending happy..
just bear with me la....

sorry, i rejected so many invitation from u all...
but i am not in mood for any outing
=)

i think i need to hide at home for some period...
searching a nice online game...
i wanna be addicted to online game again...

cause i have done this before... it is effective...
playing day and night... forget things, forget feeling, forget myself...
if it can make me feel better... i dun mind degenerate for a while...

whatever it is...

it will be...

i dare not to hope anymore...

dear my frenssss
thanks for the same expression again...
=.=
when i told u all, u all just gave me the same expression...
again ah? nvm la.... ok de la....
u ok de la.... will be fine later...
no worries la... u temporary only la...
next few days, i will see u be fine again de... u will be with __ again...
thx for the don't bothering attitude....

( convo above do not include u =) )

what if it really didn't happen like what before?

i m slapping my face quite frequent...
when i trying to think of possibility..
i will slap my face... wake up ....

and here...
want to thank someone...
knowing that i am appearing off9
and ask am i alright..

i m fine =)
thanks so much....


dunno wat to write ....
tat all for tonight....