broken heart

there is no basic trust between u and me...
there is no understand between u and me...
there only u and u and u, but not us and us and us....
there only negative perception toward me...
you can only see me through my surface but not the underneath....
whatever i have done u felt disgust to me...
your feeling toward me is no longer exist...
you doesn't feel like holding my hand anymore...
you no longer feel how i felt how u ...
you no longer see my beauty side
you feel between us is a mess...
you can't find the link between us...
you have never intent to want me back or even a single second try pull me back
you only wish to be the negative side...

once again...
history repeated....

when u said u had a broken heart...
i m sorry...
cuz i had a broken heart too....
if might not as broke as yrs, but definitely not less than u...

i need a media diet from now on...
to all people, dun ever find me if nothing is important..
please go settle yr self....
i m not a human solution....

i promise myself...
no matter how... follow my meal....
i doesn't want to skip any meal anymore...

yama:
u said i look like zombie when u first saw me again last sun...
bamboo stick, flat until breast also dun have...
look like kind of people have serious diseases...
look so pale...
what a comment that slapped my face so pain...

and i told u before... he is my only weakness....
i have never learn to overcome or fight against my weakness....

BUT
i will remember to eat next time...
need to gain weight...

i will not be emotional to my meal again..
skipping meal when i feel so upset....
so tasteless every time i eat my food when my mood is bad...
its just like torturing me..

no more skipping meal when u re not eating with me
no more skipping meal when u re not there anymore...
no more skipping meal when we are not in good condition...

no more .....